Based on My Story

A few years ago, I thought about a principle. I really enjoyed with my principle and I didn’t think it would became a regret for my self. I had a principle and believed with my principle that love can be expressed with words. Simply with an attitude that shows that we had love.

At that time, I had a boyfriend from Switzerland. He lived in Jakarta. He loves racing car. Everytime, he speeds on his car, he feels he is number one. But one day he used his motorcycle and that unusual for him. Because he was too late to go to college. Before he left, he was asked about my feeling for him. But I was still silent and cann’t answer anything. I just can said “be careful beibh”. Maybe he understood what I mean, finally he end the conversation.

When he was going to college, he was trapped in traffic jam. Because it’s condition he became impatient. So, he decided to turn into the small road on his left. He drove fast. When he was going 80km/hours, little girl crossed the street without paying attention to the traffic. He tried to avoid her, but he lost control of his motorcycle. The girl was okay, but he hit a tree. He was unconscious for several hours. When he woke up, he was in the hospital. But a few minutes after that, he returned critical. And one thing that I cann’t believed, because that accident he passed away. It’s a painful reality. At that time, I really wanted to scream and cry. I never really questioned that I was love him. And finally I thought that was a stupid principle. I really regret and I don’t know what to do. I just thought I should expressed my feeling for him. But I always believe that Allah has secret for everything.